Motivation….Is That You?

Don’t freak out – it’s really me, blogging, again, in one week. Crazy, right.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my last blog post and boy was I having a moment. I wasn’t just having a moment, I was feeling DAMN sorry for myself. I woke up super early on Monday morning with my mind just turning. Basically, I have two options:

A. I can choose to accept my current circumstances and pout.
B. I can choose to accept my current circumstances and make some changes.

I chose B.

Source: trainingfit.tumblr.com via Pam on Pinterest

Then I found this!

Taking one thing at a time….

1. I’m blogging again. I realized I could bust out a post in 30 minutes. I search the internet for 30 minutes a day. Write a blog post. Done.

2. I’ve sign up for this half marathon in May, might as well try my best. So, on Monday I walked/jogged 5 miles. And today, I logged a 5K. That’s 8 miles in two days! YAY me! My plan is to do another 3 miler Wednesday or Thursday with the other day being a rest day. Then Friday bust out a long walk/jog (7-8 miles). I’ve been jogging .25 miles and walking .75. Puts me around a 14 minute mile. I’m not out to break any records here, just want to finish.

3. I’ve decided to do the Advocare 24 day challenge.  I’m not sure when I’ll start because I need to work it into the budget but I’d like to finish the 24 days prior to the half. It’s a kick start.

I feel better. I feel like things are ok. Damn you endorphins!

Still haven’t finished my taxes. Must finish those this week! I can’t believe I’ve waited this long!

Have you tried any Advocare products? Or the 24 day challenge? Any advise? Finished your taxes yet?

 

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Absolutely No Excuse

Oh little blog, I’ve abandoned you. Not intentionally. I think of you all the time. If only I could force myself to sit down and pen an incredible blog entry that will make you happy.

Unfortunately, the only reason I’m writing today is because I am avoiding my taxes like the plague. I’ve balanced my bank account, downloaded all the pictures from my phone and updated my iPod. Now, I’m blogging.

I’d love to tell you that Insanity is going GREAT, training is right on track and I’ve lost an incredible amount of weight. Alas, none of those are true. Insanity is hard. And my motivation is soft. Training is hard. And my motivation is soft. Cookies are good. And my will power is soft.

I’m a bit discouraged at the moment. The job is great, but again, I don’t want to be working. My weight is at the highest point ever. I will be walking about half marathon in May when I was hoping to be running the entire thing. I’m moving home at the end of April. All of these points will be detailed further in future posts.

There are still lots of things that make me happy!

Like the Shamrock 4-miler on St. Patty’s Day!

Friends who like to wake up at the crack of dawn and do the Shamrock 4-miler with me. Some even travel from Alabama to play with me. (Or were already coming anyway and made time for me!)

Being Coach Pam and working with my amazing Girls on the Run team!

Handsome men in my life!

And last but not least, my beloved Kentucky Wildcats are headed back to the Final Four! C-A-T-S CATS! CATS! CATS!

Now back to the taxes. 😦

Hello Little Blog

Hello little blog,

It’s been a long time! I’m so sorry to have neglected you for all of February.This is the first night I’ve had time to really sit down and focus on you!

Let me fill you in:

  1. New job is A-OK! Worked a little later tonight so I could finish closing the 2011 books. It’s taken me almost 2 weeks! I had to start thinking like the crazy lady who was doing them before me to figure out the method to her madness. But they are done and are going to the accountant on Tuesday. So happy!
  2. Coach Pam has been busy getting things ready for Girls on the Run. I’ve completed my bio, a multitude of forms, training and visited my site. Because it is at a catholic school, I had to take an additional Child Protection Protocols training. Basically, it was a CYA for the church and the Diocese. But good information. It could have been presented in about 45 minutes rather than 2 hours and I most definitely could have done without the video….but I survived. Saturday morning I am skipping the mini marathon training run to get CPR certified – a head coach requirement. Our first official practice is February 21st.
  3. Speaking of mini marathon, Monday it is officially 12 weeks away. My out-of-state training buddy prepared a training schedule for me! I love those kids from Alabama – wish they were closer. Anyway, I’ve been trying to run a few times a week. But starting Monday – I will follow the training schedule. I will tweak it a bit because……
  4. I started INSANITY!! Yes – Insanity, from Beach Body and smoking hot Shaun T – seriously have you seen that dude? H-O-T! And by starting Insanity, I mean I took my before photo and did the Fit Test. I also watched the first workout. Holy smokes! If I don’t drop some lbs doing this, they just aren’t going anywhere. I also have a little goal for you dear blog – once I complete Insanity, I’m going to post my before and after pictures. It will be embarrassing but people are going to see them when I’m on the next infomercial. I’m also going to try and post more about my training so you’re not neglected anymore.

Training, Insanity, GOTR, work, sleep – that’s about it. If it makes you feel any better, I’m way behind on reading blogs too! I’ve even been less active on Twitter and Facebook. See, you’re not the only one being ignored!

I’ll be back this weekend to post a few of the many draft posts I’ve started but never finished.

Thanks for not forgetting about me!

Love, Pam

 

2012 Project List

Resolutions? To-do lists? Goals? What do you choose to call them?

This year I’m going with Projects. I’ve spent the last two years as a project manager and this is where I feel the most comfortable. Resolution always feels so HUGE and daunting. Projects can be huge ; however they are broken down into steps or stages for completion. I know for a fact I can juggle multiple projects. And I feel accomplishment by completing different stages/tasks for a project.

Project #1 – Be nicer to myself. I am incredibly hard on myself. I am harder on myself than I would ever be on anyone else. I hold myself to complete unrealistic expectations. I have a great vision of who I should be and when my actual actions don’t meet that vision, I give myself one heck of a talking to! I’m going to do this by:

  • Setting more realistic expectations for everything in my life.
  • Forgive myself quickly when I don’t meet those expectations. No one is perfect.
  • My past is just that, past. Why relive it? I can’t do anything about it. Just forgive, find the lesson and move on. Stop analyzing past events – pushing people away, staying too long, missing an opportunity. If it was supposed to be, it would be. Letting go will be huge for me this year.
  • Be true to myself. (See Project #2)

Project #2 – Be true to myself and like myself for who I am. Sounds simply, huh? I’ve been trapped in this mindset that I have to be more than I am which leads me to making plans that I don’t want to keep, which leads to anxiety and then beat myself up (Project #1). This vicious cycle has to stop. Below are some things I need to learn to embrace and be proud of because they are ME:

  • I’m a homebody. And I’m happy being a homebody. I’m happy to stay home, watch a movie, read a book, chat with friends, etc. When I am alone, I am not lonely (most of the time). It really is ok.
  • I don’t have 400 friends who want to hang out all the time and I am A-OK with this. I have a handful of amazing true friends that would be there for me in a second and I would for them. I do need to make a more conscious effort to see them/reach out more in 2012.
  • I do like to go out – lunch, dinner, drinks, movies, etc. I’m no longer a “clubber”. I don’t want to drink so much I can’t function the next day. Small, intimate gatherings are perfect. Outings with a purpose – such as watching My Kentucky Wildcats win another NCAA championship on the big screen at a local pub, celebrating birthdays, weddings, psychic readings etc.
  • I like to sleep. No, it’s not depression, just sleep. And currently, I’m unemployed. If  I want to sleep until 11 every day, I will. And I will still get everything done that I need to – promise!
  • I’m a planner! I’m OCD sometimes. Love it or don’t – it is what it is. And sometimes I get that overwhelmed by to do lists, it happens. Sometimes I try to take over (the world), it happens.
  • I eat like crap. I love cheese, queso, bread, wine, beer, cookies, pizza, diet coke – I could go on here all day. I will never be vegan or vegetarian. I know I should try to eat better. And I do eat better. Sometimes. And that’s probably how it will stay, for now.
  • I hate dating. I’m taking my profiles off of the multiple dating websites that are doing me absolutely no good. I’m going to trust that when my Prince Charming is ready for me, he’ll find me.

Project #3 – Run like the wind! Or at least a gently breeze. And do lots of other workouts too!

  • I will run a race every month (except January).
  • My goal pace is a 12 minute mile.
  • I will take 40-60 minutes off my half marathon pace. Currently it’s 3:23 (I walked most of it.) I’d like to finish the Indianapolis Mini Marathon in May with a time of 2:23 – 2:40.
  • I will run a 5k in 35 minutes or less. I’m currently at 41.01.
  • I will purchase new shoes before I start hard-core training in February. Shoes made specifically for running.
  • I will log 500 miles in 2012 with my fancy new Garmin 405.
  • I will attend 100 fitness classes. (I pay for the stupid gym – might as well use it!)

Project #4 – Grow this fancy little blog. And by grow, I mean let someone else know about it besides my mom. (HI MOM!!)

  • I will blog 2-4 times a week.
  • I will determine the actual theme of this blog – fitness, weight-loss, random pam-isms. So many possibilities.
  • I will figure out how to get noticed, gain followers – I have no idea who to do this but I will figure it out. Maybe I’ll even blog about it! HA!
  • I will comment on at least 5 other blogs per week.
  • I will become a better writer. I’m sure there are tons of errors in these posts and I will get better! (This is my plea to keep reading through my grammatical errors. Thanks!)

Project #5 – Find a job/gainful employment/go back to school/move out-of-state/decide not to move out-of-state/stop living in the land of limbo. (Don’t worry mom, these projects are not in order of importance!) The limbo has to stop. I need a clear direction.

  • I will have clear direction by February 1, 2012. Promise.

As I reread this, I noticed two themes that I typically resolve in January that are not specifically included this year – Weight loss and love. I’ve decided these will come. Once I’m right with me, the rest will follow.

2012 is the year of the Pam! Hope you stick around to see the completed projects!

What are your resolutions, goals, to-dos, projects? Do you make them? Do you stick to them?

One Race or Two?

My goal was to get my 5k time down around 35-38 minutes by the end of the year. (My most recent attempt was 41:38.) I’ve been focusing more on cross-training than running the past two weeks.

There are two races I’m interested in this month:

1. 5th Annual 5K’s of Christmas Presented By the Carmel Running Club

  • Date: December 17th
  • It’s very close to me.
  • I love running the Monon Trail.
  • The Carmel Running Club is new and I might want to get involved.

2. 7th Annual Race to the New Year

  • Date: December 31st
  • Even closer to me.
  • I’ve been running Cool Creek Park all summer.
  • It’s a great exercise before I attend any New Years festivities.

I really need to decide by Monday and register. Thoughts? Suggestions?

Bat-Shit Crazy Robin

I woke up Monday morning with plenty of time to make the 8:30 Step Plus Abs class at the gym. Instead, I decided to finish up a freelance project I had to have done by the afternoon. This actually was a good decision because it took longer than I had expected. I would have been pushing the deadline if I had worked out in the morning.

Instead, I went to Step Circuit at 5:45. Step Circuit is step combinations plus weight training. The instructor, Robin, said she wanted to do things differently this class: 30-40 minutes of step then 10-15 minutes of weights. Typically, there is a step combination, then weights, alternating the entire class.

Couple things to remember here – 1) I haven’t done step in MANY years. 2) The class is packed. 3) I’m dead in the middle of the room. 4) I’m the only newbie!

After the warmup and the first combination, I began to refer to Robin as Bat-Shit Crazy Robin (only in my mind, of course). I think this chick was making it up as she went along. I was good with the basics, wide steps, up-and-overs (with and without squats), repeaters. I even remembered the “I Step”. But then she added this Merry-Go-Round thing with a travel move – I was always the one facing the wrong direction, traveling the wrong way, starting with my left instead of my right. I seriously felt like I was just walking in circles for about 10 minutes; however, I did get a good belly laugh out of it!

I didn’t run after class because I was so worn out – more mentally than physically.

Tuesday I had planned to do a back-to-back consisting of Body Works and Kickboxing – two favorites of mine. Body Works is a low-weight dumbbell, high repetition workout. And wouldn’t you know, I get in there, all set up, ready to rock and I notice who our instructor is – Bat-Shit Crazy Robin. I was good with the warm up because it was practically identical to the Step class warm up. And surprisingly, Bat-Shit Crazy Robin wasn’t quite so Bat-Shit Crazy. It was actually a pretty awesome workout. Nothing too crazy, no Merry-Go-Rounds, just lots and lots and LOTS of reps which was awesome!

However, I was spent afterwards so I skipped Kickboxing. I’m such a slacker!

I may take tonight off or I’ll go see Bat-Shit Crazy Robin at 5:45 for another round of Step. That’s still TBD…

Lifetime and Accountability

So, I’m happy to report:

  • Henry Krinkle and Rebecca reconciled their differences and are still engage. And their families eventually got along despite their difference.
  • Emily finally made it home to her Christmas wedding to Ben!
  • Tom, though tragically killed in a car accident, went into the light after making sure that Susan and Jonathon (his wife and son) were going to live happily ever after.

It’s been a Lifetime movie marathon day! I was going to turn it off and get some things done after Ben and Emily got married. However, I was sucked into Susan’s story immediately and didn’t want to miss out.

Hey – I’m unemployed – I can’t shop, can’t go out to eat, can’t sit at a bar all day watching football and drinking beers – Don’t judge! Plus it’s raining and icky outside. (Have you noticed I’m the queen of excuses?!?!)

I did, however, make my workout schedule for the week:

  • Monday – Step plus Abs, run/walk 2 miles
  • Tuesday – Back-to-back – Body Works then Kickboxing
  • Wednesday – Back to back – Step plus Abs then Body Works
  • Thursday – Rest
  • Friday – Run/walk 2-3 miles
  • Saturday/Sunday – at least one Spin class. We’ll see how I feel.

I’ve put it out there so now I have to do it, right!?

Do you plan your workouts for the week? Are you a sucker for a Lifetime movie, like me?