13 13’s in 2013

It occurred to me as I was writing my 2012 recap that maybe my “projects” aka resolutions were a bit too lofty. Yes – I should be nicer to myself, true to myself and find a life path. Yes – I should and will do those things. However, thinking they will happen in one year is nuts! I’ll probably be working on these projects when I’m 80.

I have decided if I am going to do resolution/goals/projects, they need to be tangible, calculated goals that I can wrap my head around. And that I can boast about throughout the year to my pretty little blog lovers. With this realization, I present to you – 13 13’s in 2013.

  1. Read 13 books for pleasure.
  2. Be 13 pounds lighter by the end of the year (that is a minimum – hopefully more).
  3. Go on 13 dates. Notice I did not say first dates. If my next date is the man of my dreams, he will count for all 13 dates.
  4. Have $2,013 in savings by December 31, 2013.
  5. Give/Send 13 “just because” gifts or cards to my loves for no apparent reason.
  6. Do 13 anonymous random acts of kindness.
  7. Complete a west coast half marathon – running/walking/skipping – whatever. (A half marathon is 13.1 miles.)
  8. Write and post 13 blog entries a month.
  9. Indulge in 13 “technology free” days this year. No TV, internet, phone, Twitter, Facebook, etc.  (Yes, Mom, I’ll warn you in advance.)
  10. I will do 13 different types of exercise – not necessarily new, but at least different to shake things up.
  11. I will bring my lunch 13 times a month. Whoa – This will take some work.
  12. I will cook 13 new to me meals. The kind where I find a recipe on Pinterest, purchase the ingredients and cook. Again – whoa!
  13. Try 13 new things. This should be pretty easy since I live in an entirely new area but we’ll see.

So there you have it – My 13 13’s in 2013. I’m excited to make a spreadsheet to track all of these!

Have you made any resolutions to share with the left bean family?


Not Too Shabby 2012

Happy New Year! I hope everyone is doing well on this fine January morning!

I know that once the new year hits, you’re not supposed to look back but I haven’t done a 2012 recap yet so I’m doing it now. Based on my “projects” for 2012, I would call 2012 an absolute fail. Let’s briefly recap these so called “projects”:

Project #1 – Be nicer to myself.
Project #2 – Be true to myself and like myself for who I am.
Project #3 – Run like the wind! Or at least a gently breeze. And do lots of other workouts too!
Project #4 – Grow this fancy little blog.
Project #5 – Find a job/gainful employment/go back to school/move out-of-state/decide not to move out-of-state/stop living in the land of limbo.

I did provide a mid-year recap which was less than stellar. And not much as changed since then…expect Project #5.

Project #1 and #2 will always be a work in progress. I am a perfectionist and a people-pleaser. These two things do not go together well because you will never please every person all the time. This is hard for me to swallow because I want to make everyone happy and rather than work on this, I’ve kind of just fell into a whole of not making anyone happy including myself which is just not nice.

Project #3, well, honestly, I stopped running after the Geist 5K. Why? I have no idea. That’s a lie – I do know. See Project #1 and #2. I wanted running to come naturally to me. I read all of these blogs from these amazing ladies who run like the wind, and I wanted to be one of them. I wanted to be one of them – immediately. I wanted to see improvement with every run. I wanted to drop lbs like it was my job. I wanted to be able to annihilate a basket of bread with a side of pasta and not gain an ounce and be fueled for my next run.

Project #4 – I feel I have grown this little blog. I have new people following me with every post. I’m sure if I just tweeted when I write new posts, I could do so much more. Yet again, see Project #1 and #2 – I don’t feel lefty is promotion worthy yet.

Project #5 – NAILED IT! For the first time in a few years, I had a job almost every day of 2012! And in my wildest dreams, I never thought that would excite me so much – I always assumed that would be a given. And, I finally made the move I’ve been dreaming about since I was 20. And I am loving every minute being a California girl!

But in reality – 2012 really wasn’t that bad. I may have failed at a few goals but I did so much more instead!

  • I celebrated with my friends more – birthdays, promotions, weddings, graduations – I was there.
  • I was a coach for Girls on the Run. And I was a damn good one.
  • I was an asset to the association I worked for – without question. I planned events, ran the office, fixed the accounting and generally made people want to be involved again. I did great work!
  • I walk/ran a half marathon. The largest half in the United States. Not stellar but I did it.
  • I spent more time with my favorite monkeys (nieces and nephew).
  • I had one date.
  • I found a new love. (And it’s not the training schedule)
  • I moved to California. (!!!!!!!)

All said, 2012 was a year that had to happen in order to lay the ground work for 2013 and years to come. And as I sit here on January 1st thinking about 2012, I smile knowing of all the great things to come!

Happy New Year!

New Training Program

I’ve made another crazy decision – I’m running the Blues at the Crossroads half marathon in September. And I have a real training plan for the next 15 weeks. That seems like a long time but also a really short time, does that make any sense? Anyway, I did this race last year and it was my first half marathon. I feel like I need to go back and do better than my previous time.

I’m coming for you


And you, lovely blog, are going to help me! I am committing to blog every Sunday with my weekly training schedule and update on the previous weeks successes.

Monday: Strength & Stretch
Tuesday: 3 mile run/walk
Wednesday: 2 mile run/walk or cross train
Thursday: 3 mile run/walk & strength
Friday: Rest
Saturday: 4 mile run/walk
Sunday: Cross train

I am traveling for work on Wednesday and Thursday so I will have to be proactive and do Wednesday’s workout before I leave. And I will most likely make Thursday a rest day and Friday the 3 mile & strength.

Here’s to a good week!


OneAmerica 500 Fesitval Mini Marathon Recap

The recap you’ve all been waiting for…..right? HA! I think the real reason I’m even putting this out onto the interwebs is so I can laugh at it next year when I dominate this race. And yes, for all my pity partying, whining and complaining, I am planning on doing it again. And will make it my bitch. Tough talk for a race that’s 50 weeks away!

Let’s start with race morning….
Up on time – check.
Gear ready to go – check.
Water, water and more water – check.
Cat nearly biting off my finger – check.
Running out the door five minutes later after making sure I didn’t need stitches and bandaging my finger – Check. (P.S. I was secretly  hoping to drive to the ER rather than the Mini Marathon. Pathetic – Check.)

The drive downtown from the northside of Indy was good….until 52nd street. Then people just got stupid. So I took the back way, so did many of the stupid people.

Finally, parked at IUPUI and headed toward the starting line. I was in corral Q but my friends were in X so I had decided the week before to start with them.

Hey – do you know how large a 35,000 race is with spectators? About 20 minutes and just over a mile (I’m estimating) later, I’m in corral X. With no friends. Then the texting begins.

Me: “I’m in corral X under the St. Elmo’s sign.”
Niki: “Are you on the right or left side.”
Me: “I have no idea. I’m under the St. Elmo’s sign.”
Niki: “We’re on the left.”
Me: “I’m under the St. Elmo’s sign. Oh no, we’re moving.”

They finally found me. (I was on the right.)

The gun went off. And 35 minutes later we crossed the starting line. (35,000 runners/walkers = bat shit insane)

My Race Plan
Jog 1/4 mile. Walk 3/4 mile. Every mile. Keep it simple. Don’t die. Finish.

Mile 1
I felt amazing. I was with my friends. I was digging the crowd. I was loving the music. And at .4 miles, I walked and let the girls go on. Smartest thing I did all day.

Mile 2
Have I mentioned that 35,000 people are a lot of people? I’m bobbin’ and weavin’ like it was my job. And stuck with  my race plan.

Mile 3
WAHOOO!!!! I just finished a 5K. I’m so almost done! Wait, I have to finish 3 more of those plus some. Crap. Well, keep moving.

Mile 4
I seriously have to pee. And there are long lines at the port-o-lets. I really hate port-o-lets. This was the first mile I walked completely. I had thought I would run again. That would be a lie.

They say a picture is worth a thousand words so I’ll show you my splits from my Garmin. Then I’ll give you some highlights….that I remember.

Worth a thousand words.

Mile 6 (Indianapolis Motor Speedway)
Just before finishing mile 6, I had to stop and pee. We were inside the track. There were real potty’s. My shorts were relatively comfortable prior to this break. They were never the same after. Have I mentioned yet that it was HOT? And humid? And muggy? I could have probably peed in my shorts and no one would have been the wiser. (Teasing, kind of)

Mile 7 (Indianapolis Motor Speedway)
Good God – how on Earth do these drivers, pit crews, etc work on this track in MAY and AUGUST? I need to call my cousin’s husband or give him a big hug next time I see him (he’s on Carl Edward’s pit crew – I’m kind of famous-in-law – not really – I digress). But seriously, crazy hot. When I’m typically at the track, I’m in the shade or the bleachers with a cold beverage in my hand. Side note – I think I wrote this part of the blog in my head while walking mile 7. I came up with famous-in-law. It made me giggle out loud. Totally not weird, right?

Mile 8 (Indianapolis Motor Speedway)
This is where the infamous mug shot front page shot was taken. This was also the moment I almost quit (#1). And the moment they put out the yellow caution flags because of the heat. I’ve mentioned the heat, right? And one of the many moments I thought I would die.

Mile 9
Shade – sweet Jesus – Shade. And then, it was gone. I’m pretty sure I’m going to have a nasty blister on the ball of my foot.

Mile 10
I’m pretty sure that nasty blister on the ball of my foot just popped. Not pretty sure, confirmed. I could stop now (almost quit moment #2). No one would fault me. This hurts like a son-ov-a. Then, I decide to suck it up. I try making friends someone to chat with, but everyone around me is bitter and hot and tired.

Mile 11
My music was the only thing that got me through. And the kind people who live along 10th street spraying us with their hoses. Those people ROCK!

Mile 12
We turned onto the bridge to cross the White River to the finish line. I heard angels singing. The birds were chirping. There were rainbows and puppy dogs. And then it just kept going….on….and on…..and on…..I swear it was the cruelest of cruel jokes. The last mile was at least 10 or 11 miles. So really, I think I completed a marathon.

Mile 13
So you’d think .1 mile would be super easy. There was no amount of money, no handsome man, no golden ticket that would have persuaded me to run that last tenth of a mile. I did manage to lift my arms, kind of, when crossing. I had finished.

Once crossing the finish line, I did not stop. I knew that the moment I stopped was the location my body would be in for the next few hours. Water, cookie, picture – now I needed to find my friends.

Niki – “My phone is almost dead. Call Chris.”
Me – “I’m done. Where are you?”
Chris – “B2”
Me – “I have no idea what that means.”
Chris (Now Niki) – “Where are you?”
Me – “Standing under a tree. I see B1 and B4.”
Chris/Niki – “I don’t know where that is.”
Me – “I’m not moving. I’m standing under the B1 sign. Come get me.”

They found me and I sat under a tree with my friends while we waited for a couple others.

We finished.

We took a picture.
I walked slowly to my car.
I called my mom to ask her to order me a pizza. She agreed.
I showered. Ate pizza. And slept all afternoon.

And I will look back on this post in one year and giggle.

The OneAmerica 500 Festival Mini Marathon race and recap is complete. Now I can stop thinking about it!

Motivation….Is That You?

Don’t freak out – it’s really me, blogging, again, in one week. Crazy, right.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my last blog post and boy was I having a moment. I wasn’t just having a moment, I was feeling DAMN sorry for myself. I woke up super early on Monday morning with my mind just turning. Basically, I have two options:

A. I can choose to accept my current circumstances and pout.
B. I can choose to accept my current circumstances and make some changes.

I chose B.

Source: trainingfit.tumblr.com via Pam on Pinterest

Then I found this!

Taking one thing at a time….

1. I’m blogging again. I realized I could bust out a post in 30 minutes. I search the internet for 30 minutes a day. Write a blog post. Done.

2. I’ve sign up for this half marathon in May, might as well try my best. So, on Monday I walked/jogged 5 miles. And today, I logged a 5K. That’s 8 miles in two days! YAY me! My plan is to do another 3 miler Wednesday or Thursday with the other day being a rest day. Then Friday bust out a long walk/jog (7-8 miles). I’ve been jogging .25 miles and walking .75. Puts me around a 14 minute mile. I’m not out to break any records here, just want to finish.

3. I’ve decided to do the Advocare 24 day challenge.  I’m not sure when I’ll start because I need to work it into the budget but I’d like to finish the 24 days prior to the half. It’s a kick start.

I feel better. I feel like things are ok. Damn you endorphins!

Still haven’t finished my taxes. Must finish those this week! I can’t believe I’ve waited this long!

Have you tried any Advocare products? Or the 24 day challenge? Any advise? Finished your taxes yet?


Absolutely No Excuse

Oh little blog, I’ve abandoned you. Not intentionally. I think of you all the time. If only I could force myself to sit down and pen an incredible blog entry that will make you happy.

Unfortunately, the only reason I’m writing today is because I am avoiding my taxes like the plague. I’ve balanced my bank account, downloaded all the pictures from my phone and updated my iPod. Now, I’m blogging.

I’d love to tell you that Insanity is going GREAT, training is right on track and I’ve lost an incredible amount of weight. Alas, none of those are true. Insanity is hard. And my motivation is soft. Training is hard. And my motivation is soft. Cookies are good. And my will power is soft.

I’m a bit discouraged at the moment. The job is great, but again, I don’t want to be working. My weight is at the highest point ever. I will be walking about half marathon in May when I was hoping to be running the entire thing. I’m moving home at the end of April. All of these points will be detailed further in future posts.

There are still lots of things that make me happy!

Like the Shamrock 4-miler on St. Patty’s Day!

Friends who like to wake up at the crack of dawn and do the Shamrock 4-miler with me. Some even travel from Alabama to play with me. (Or were already coming anyway and made time for me!)

Being Coach Pam and working with my amazing Girls on the Run team!

Handsome men in my life!

And last but not least, my beloved Kentucky Wildcats are headed back to the Final Four! C-A-T-S CATS! CATS! CATS!

Now back to the taxes. 😦

2012 Project List

Resolutions? To-do lists? Goals? What do you choose to call them?

This year I’m going with Projects. I’ve spent the last two years as a project manager and this is where I feel the most comfortable. Resolution always feels so HUGE and daunting. Projects can be huge ; however they are broken down into steps or stages for completion. I know for a fact I can juggle multiple projects. And I feel accomplishment by completing different stages/tasks for a project.

Project #1 – Be nicer to myself. I am incredibly hard on myself. I am harder on myself than I would ever be on anyone else. I hold myself to complete unrealistic expectations. I have a great vision of who I should be and when my actual actions don’t meet that vision, I give myself one heck of a talking to! I’m going to do this by:

  • Setting more realistic expectations for everything in my life.
  • Forgive myself quickly when I don’t meet those expectations. No one is perfect.
  • My past is just that, past. Why relive it? I can’t do anything about it. Just forgive, find the lesson and move on. Stop analyzing past events – pushing people away, staying too long, missing an opportunity. If it was supposed to be, it would be. Letting go will be huge for me this year.
  • Be true to myself. (See Project #2)

Project #2 – Be true to myself and like myself for who I am. Sounds simply, huh? I’ve been trapped in this mindset that I have to be more than I am which leads me to making plans that I don’t want to keep, which leads to anxiety and then beat myself up (Project #1). This vicious cycle has to stop. Below are some things I need to learn to embrace and be proud of because they are ME:

  • I’m a homebody. And I’m happy being a homebody. I’m happy to stay home, watch a movie, read a book, chat with friends, etc. When I am alone, I am not lonely (most of the time). It really is ok.
  • I don’t have 400 friends who want to hang out all the time and I am A-OK with this. I have a handful of amazing true friends that would be there for me in a second and I would for them. I do need to make a more conscious effort to see them/reach out more in 2012.
  • I do like to go out – lunch, dinner, drinks, movies, etc. I’m no longer a “clubber”. I don’t want to drink so much I can’t function the next day. Small, intimate gatherings are perfect. Outings with a purpose – such as watching My Kentucky Wildcats win another NCAA championship on the big screen at a local pub, celebrating birthdays, weddings, psychic readings etc.
  • I like to sleep. No, it’s not depression, just sleep. And currently, I’m unemployed. If  I want to sleep until 11 every day, I will. And I will still get everything done that I need to – promise!
  • I’m a planner! I’m OCD sometimes. Love it or don’t – it is what it is. And sometimes I get that overwhelmed by to do lists, it happens. Sometimes I try to take over (the world), it happens.
  • I eat like crap. I love cheese, queso, bread, wine, beer, cookies, pizza, diet coke – I could go on here all day. I will never be vegan or vegetarian. I know I should try to eat better. And I do eat better. Sometimes. And that’s probably how it will stay, for now.
  • I hate dating. I’m taking my profiles off of the multiple dating websites that are doing me absolutely no good. I’m going to trust that when my Prince Charming is ready for me, he’ll find me.

Project #3 – Run like the wind! Or at least a gently breeze. And do lots of other workouts too!

  • I will run a race every month (except January).
  • My goal pace is a 12 minute mile.
  • I will take 40-60 minutes off my half marathon pace. Currently it’s 3:23 (I walked most of it.) I’d like to finish the Indianapolis Mini Marathon in May with a time of 2:23 – 2:40.
  • I will run a 5k in 35 minutes or less. I’m currently at 41.01.
  • I will purchase new shoes before I start hard-core training in February. Shoes made specifically for running.
  • I will log 500 miles in 2012 with my fancy new Garmin 405.
  • I will attend 100 fitness classes. (I pay for the stupid gym – might as well use it!)

Project #4 – Grow this fancy little blog. And by grow, I mean let someone else know about it besides my mom. (HI MOM!!)

  • I will blog 2-4 times a week.
  • I will determine the actual theme of this blog – fitness, weight-loss, random pam-isms. So many possibilities.
  • I will figure out how to get noticed, gain followers – I have no idea who to do this but I will figure it out. Maybe I’ll even blog about it! HA!
  • I will comment on at least 5 other blogs per week.
  • I will become a better writer. I’m sure there are tons of errors in these posts and I will get better! (This is my plea to keep reading through my grammatical errors. Thanks!)

Project #5 – Find a job/gainful employment/go back to school/move out-of-state/decide not to move out-of-state/stop living in the land of limbo. (Don’t worry mom, these projects are not in order of importance!) The limbo has to stop. I need a clear direction.

  • I will have clear direction by February 1, 2012. Promise.

As I reread this, I noticed two themes that I typically resolve in January that are not specifically included this year – Weight loss and love. I’ve decided these will come. Once I’m right with me, the rest will follow.

2012 is the year of the Pam! Hope you stick around to see the completed projects!

What are your resolutions, goals, to-dos, projects? Do you make them? Do you stick to them?

My Year in Review

2011 was definitely a year of highs and lows.


  • Work was busy, busy, busy.
  • I had decided to end an abusive relationship in late 2010. However, he promised to get help so I hung on. But in January, it was really over and I was devastated. Because work was so busy, I decided not to process anything.


  • Icepocalypse 2011 – Trapped in my lonely apartment for 3 days, now plenty of time to process the death of my relationship. Not pretty. Not pretty at all. Probably the lowest I have ever been in my entire life.
  • Trip to San Francisco to see my wonderful friends Amber and Greg. Monterrey Bay, Chinese New Year Parade, Napa – Just want  I needed!

Seriously, it looks like I belong in Napa - right?


  • Moved in with a roommate – not best friends but I’m rarely alone. Plus a huge cost savings!
  • A wonderful weekend adventure with Renee to Camp Chesterfield with 3 psychic readings!
  • My very good friend Nicole’s bachelorette party.

April – Birthday Month (Yes, I get an entire month!)

  • My University of Kentucky Wildcats made it to the final four! We’ll be in the final game this year (fingers crossed).
  • Trip to Florida with my BFF Crystal including a visit with Toni, Alex, Emma and Annie!
Toni – One of my favorite people on the planet.
  • MY BIRTHDAY – Also known as my favorite holiday!
  • Nicole and Eric’s wedding.


  • A few dates, nothing promising, but at least I was dating again!
  • Remember how work was so busy, well it wasn’t in May – I was laid off.
  • I decided to become a gypsy – you have something you need done, I’ll do it! Babysitting, moving, packing, unpacking, QuickBooks setup, tradeshows, sales….you get the idea.
  • Fell in love with running!!


  • Fell in love with hot yoga!
  • Lots of laying by the pool.


  • Motley Crue/Poison Concert – Never in a million years did I ever see myself attending this concert. Not my scene, but fun!
  • Discovery of lefty.
  • More laying by the pool.


  • Girls trip to Nashville with my 4 best friends from high school!

    In the hotel lobby before the fun. You're welcome girls!

  • My very first attempt at a 5K run. (Not very successful.)
  • Decided I was going to run/walk a half marathon.
  • Jimmy Buffett Concert

Wasting away again in Margariettaville!


  • Blues at the Crossroads Half Marathon – Terre Haute, Indiana

I wanted to finish within the 4 hour time limit. And finish I did. I was slow but so proud!

  • Ladies and Gentlemen – Mr. Elton John! This is the 5th time I’ve seen Sir Elton in concert! However, this time I was literally 5 feet from the man! And I took my mom, aunt and BF, Nicole. So flippin’ awesome!

This picture was taken from my craptacular phone with no zoom. We were that close!

  • My baby brother turned 30!!!


  • Completely taken advantage of my one of my gypsy clients. I did nothing but work for this woman for peanut during the month of October. Lessons learned – boundaries, learning to say no, self-respect!
  • Freak out – my gypsy client was my main source of income. When we parted ways, I lost my income.


  • Miss Pam needs a job STAT! Let the job search begin….
  • Another race, Goose Poop Challenge with Heather McMahon.

And we're running!

  • Matt and Chris’s Wedding!
  • The worst interview in the history of the world! (I may have to post on this later.)
  • Wishbone 5K run Thanksgiving morning.


  • Still job searching…..
  • Surviving the holiday season.
  • Planning for a A-MAZ-ING 2012! (Resolutions to come!)

How would you classify 2011? Good? Bad? Challenging? Best Year Ever?

My First Post

It’s the last day of the long Thanksgiving weekend and I’ve finally decided to post my first blog. I’ve had the blog setup for quite a while now but haven’t felt compelled to pen my first entry.

So what will this blog be? I’m sure some ranting and raving about the topic of the day. But most of all, this blog is going to be my commitment and accountability to getting healthy. I’m no expert. I’m not going to post my “stats” yet because it’s pretty embarrassing. But a couple goals (which I will expand upon over the life of the blog):

  1. Lose 3o-50 pounds (healthy).
  2. Run an entire half marathon in May 2012. Goal time 2:15-2:30.

Hopefully you’ll join me on my journey. I’d love feedback!!